In My Room/Office/Studio

In My Room/Office/Studio
"A writer and nothing else: a man alone in a room with the English language, trying to get human feelings right." - John K. Hutchen.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

What If Light Was Dark? (Poem)

What if left was right and right was left
What if wrong was right and right was wrong
What if Black was White and White was Black
What if this side was that side and that side was this side
What if Light was Dark and Dark was Light
Would the stars twinkle up above
Whispering in their glorious languages
Would the moon caress the earth with its warm tongue
Its soft touch
Imposing the greatest seduction that cannot be resisted
Would the bats and owls survive an alien world
How about the so called Witches and Wizards
Would this be the end to their dark world of broom sticks and needles
What if long was short and short was long
What if fat was thin and thin was fat
What if old was new and new was old
What if big was small and small was big
But what if Light was Dark and Dark was Light
Would the sun still bloat in it’s majestic kingdom
Boasting of an everlasting dominion over the inhabitants of the earth
Would the mornings shine with their golden rays
That awaken mankind into a sweet, sweet day
Would the evenings fade with a charming red ball in the western horizon
Would night sweep over and take over the kingdom    
What if empty was full and full was empty
What if male was female and female was male
What if dry was wet and wet was dry
What if hard was soft and soft was hard
But what if Dark was Light and Light was dark
Would the charming streetlamps of big cities glow up the avenues
Would the sunflowers flourish their colours under the glare of the sun
Would the lizards bask to the delicious warm rays in the freezing cold
Would the fire burn in the middle of the night
And the drums hit in a traditional celebration
© Dredd X

I Want To Write (Poem)

I want to write and write and write.
I want to write thousands and maybe millions of words.
 I want to write until my computer runs out pages.
 I want to write until the curser can’t blink anymore.
I want to write even as my fingers ache from punching in the keyboard.
 I want to write.
 I just want to write and I don’t care about the eyes that itch from the glare of the monitor.
I want to write words that will be read by eyes that
understand the meaning of every line and in between them.
I want to write.
I just want to write.
I want to tear words from my guts
and scatter them across the black sky and make them shine like stars.
I want to plough words on the barren sands of the Kalahari and make them grow like vegetables.
I want to write. I want to write about love and happiness. I want to write about anger and hate.
God and Lucifer. Black and white. Young and old.
 I want to write words that praise, that curse,
words that scream, that whisper.
I want to write and write and write.    
© Dredd X

Heads or Tails (Poem)

It’s been over a year
Since you’ve been running through my mind,
I’ve been trying to find a way
To let you know of how I feel
But you’re on the other side of the fence
A fence that cannot even be touched
Were are on opposite faces of the coin
You on the heads, me on the tails
No matter how much I flip the coin
You remain on the opposite
Always at the top, this poor soul at the bottom
Good lord, how am I to reach you
So untouchable like a pearl in the sky
Yet thoughts of you make me feel so high
Now there’s a storm raging through my heart
Blowing this soul apart 

Feels like I can run away
To a place so far away
Where this heart will dissolve
And these feelings varnish away
I don’t wanna feel like this

Whatever land you’re living in girl
I hope it’s treating you well
I’ll build a glass box around you
So they see but can’t get through
But I always think about the chains
That are locking me away from you
Only in my dreams can I break them
I’m thrown into a cold, cold place
If only I can see your face
Guess what?
In my mind I’ve created a world for the two of us
It’s a crazy world built on the foundations of pure hallucination
For every time I think about you
It’s like taking a drug too severe
For my sensitive brain
I flip the coin again
This time you are on the tails, I am on the heads
See….opposites again
Now there’s a storm raging through my heart
Blowing this soul apart

Feels like I can run away
To a place so far away
Where this heart will dissolve
And these feelings varnish away
I don’t wanna feel like this

© Dredd X

She Belongs To Me Now (Poem)

Man to man is so unjust
yes I agree
but what is justice, you tell me
I thought of phoning you but instead I resorted to writing you a letter
For sometimes when words are read they sound better
please be warned that these words may be hazardous to your heart
A severe stroke or a fatal heart attack may follow
But who cares? Maybe God does, but I don’t.
See, you and I do not have anything in common
except that what used to be yours is now mine
not many brothers are honest enough to say it point blank
that, look, your woman has just turned into my woman
not that we share her, no, no, no
simply, you have been expelled
of course its sad that you and her never had any disputes
but boy the winds of change blew her to my direction
for I am the source of her complete satisfaction
wipe off those tears, damn it!
you are not a baby
this woman deserves a man who knows
and practices the meaning of true love
and you are not such a man
you have never been such a man
in truth, you are only half a man
she needs a man who can hold her in his arms
and not only tell her but show her that she is the vessel of his existence
the fountain of his happiness and the ever flowing river of love
step aside and I will show you how to treat a woman
some say one man’s loss is another man’s gain
your loss my brother is my gain,
listen I just called you my brother
you must be mad over that
but I wish you happiness, really
No need to clench fists
No need for a battlefield
of course you may see it as an act of war but hey
it’s an inevitable move good for you and good for her
but most importantly, good for me
remember I said I don’t care about your feelings
days of sorrow will reign in your life  
but you should have seen the signs, poor boy
instead you were blinded by her charm
unaware that she was never ever meant for you
you probably thought what you had was too good to be true
well, that’s it
it was too good to be true
this woman is mine
She belongs to me now
and you can go tell it to the mountains
blessed is the hand that giveth, remember
you just gave me the only thing my life needs the most
God will bless you
peace be unto you

© Dredd X

Princess of Devine (Poem)

Come, Princess of Devine
Hold my hand and let’s walk on the clouds of ecstasy
You are like showers of blessings to me
Nourishing the soils of ultimate love that the creator
Designed for the two of us
Yes, a special order

You see, you and I do not care about this Valentine’s Day
For we know not who Saint Valentine the Roman is
And neither do we take part in their paganism
We stay entwined, immortal and invincible
Walk with me on this road of eternal sunshine
To where the stars twinkle above at the black sky
Where the moon bloats and smiles
Sending illuminations that paint our world in a golden carpet
You the Queen, me the King

Empress, Mother of creation
Oh, how I love it when you do that
The sway of your hips as you walk gives me the goose bumps
The radiation of your smile weakens my knees
Even when our brown skins melt into one another
Our heartbeat is inseparable, its one
Beating in the heavenly skies like Nyabinghi drums

You, my beauty
We walk in the steps our people, the Bantu
The Bemba, the Igbo, the Nguni,
We are not lost in the unrealistic, robotic modernity
We swim in the rivers of wealth
The air belongs to us
When it rains, sweetness, it rains for us
Pain is not meant for us, tears are not meant for us
You, Princess of Devine
Together we are the future
Together, we are humanity…


 © Dredd X

Those Days (Poem)

Could it be the sound of the wind hissing through the leaves
Or could it be …wait a minute
It must be the inner thoughts of my mind
battling with shields and spears hitting in the distance
like the chants of the bongo drums
the drums that awaken spiritual consciousness
hit by the rough hands that built the mud huts in which we dwell
the scratched hands that sculpted the canoes that float us to our own wonderland
the spiritual sound of the drum bellows in the mighty heavens
remembering the times when unity, peace and love were one
giving me the freedom…freedom
giving me the freedom…freedom
The drums free me from the illusions that cloud our daily lives
they journey me back in time when reality was real
when a mother could hug a baby and sing her a lullaby
now the manufactured mass produced plastic mothers
don’t even know how to hold their babies
back in time when a father could pick an axe to collect dry logs
that would keep the family warn in the biting cold
gathered in love around the warm orange flames
telling stories of wisdom
giving me the freedom…freedom
giving me the freedom…freedom
Kingdom of the sound of the drums hitting in the distance
echoing rhythms of joy and happiness
feet stomping on the ground in synchrony
celebrating the germination of another baby into the kingdom
the times when rains would nourish the lands
and crop fields will blossom with abundant food for everyone
the music of the drums resonate with peace and happiness
They remind me of the days when respect was the order of the day
When a child would greet every elderly person they see in the streets
Good morning my son, good morning my daughter, God bless you
now the little mongrels will tell you are not my relative
Humanity is related
it’s not blood that you ask for when you are thirsty
give me the freedom…

To be continued

 © Dredd X

You Spoke (Poem)

Words are but a waste of breath
Kept in the depth that of my mind a believe was
The utterance of your voice the fire it sparked
A dream it might have been for in my believe I stick
Uncertainty, the ice that melts
A crash upon my somnolent mind
With realization that yes… you spoke.
© Dredd X

Event of Your Time (Poem)

In the event of your time
When my tongue seeks nothing but some rhyme
Time does not exist for you
Neither does it for me
My body longs and heart beats faster
Each day each single day
Though I hardly smelled the rose
I can feel the tinkling sweet, sweet scent
Lingering in my nostrils
© Dredd X

Feeling Pure (Poem)

Yesterday the skies were brown
And all the curtains were down
Now that the skies are blue
What am I to do
I pull up all my window blinds
And the sun will bless what my eye finds
Oh yes, for sure
It’s a feeling too pure
it smells like roses and shines like a star
originates from way too far
spread your arms and receive the blessings of the sun
and have a joyous celebration and fun
© Dredd X

Freedom (Poem)

A sip on a hot cup of coffee
A rejection and denial to be free
Ages of suppression of the soul
But who can tell, it’s a game without a foul
Freedom is but an illusion
an illusion only a few can see
they can see and yet they cant flee
from the imposing heat that suppresses the soul
brains twitch in pains of sorrow
knowing that there is no better tomorrow
many a time fighters took it to the battle
shedding blood like slain cattle
where are the fruits to be reaped
only dead sons and daughters who’ve been raped
please universe, have mercy and let freedom reign
let the fat drops touch the ground from your marvellous rain
but we all know,
yes, freedom is but an illusion
 © Dredd X

Effects of Goodbye (Poem)

The wind whispers through my mind
So silently and chilly to only find
That the void voices sing a lullaby
A remedy to cure the effects of goodbye. 
I scream in anticipation of utmost rescue
hoping that it is but a minor miscue
wishing for the havens to reach out and touch my face
bringing y lonesome thoughts back in place
But what use is it when fearsome hands luck in darkness
stretching out and giving birth to all the loneliness
in a time when the mind foresees nothing fruitful
for only you my life you rule
© Dredd X

What Happens When... (Poem)

At times I feel like writing you a poem
For I always felt like I owe you one
But then I realize that the poem that comes out
Is not the kind that
I would like you to hear
I want to write you something that would soothe you
Something very…sweet
Something that would sweep you off your feet
But then words always freeze on my tongue
I scratch my head so roughly for I cannot find
Any vocabulary that would mean what I want to say

I want the words that would describe
What happens when the sun rises and hits on your eye lashes
What happens when the heavenly stars reflect on the surfaces of your pupils
What happens when the sands of time brush past your sensational face
I can not find the words that describe
What happens when the sun suddenly meets the moon
When the storms rise from the west
To meet those rising from the east
What happens when cumulonimbus clouds
Coalesce behind the marbles of your jelly eyes

I want the words that would paint an image
Of what happens when the sound of your voice
Reaches the depth of my ear, the center of my soul
Words that would describe the precious personality
That lies beneath your beautiful brown skin
What happens when I lay my hands on that softness,
 The silkiness of your skin
The fire that burns within

I cannot find a description of the feeling
I get when your skin slides against mine
When your sharp tongue pierces through my heart
What happens when your loving arms close around my trembling body
The feeling that surges through my veins as you squeeze me tight
I want to write about
What happens when you tell me those words
With the acoustic music of your voice
What happens when I look into those paralyzing eyes
And realize that you mean every single one
Of those three words

Even as a I board my boat to sail on the waters of your soul
I can feel the winds rising from somewhere in the core of your being
These are the winds that are threatening
To rock my terribly unsteady boat
I do not want my unsteady boat to rock
For I want not to sink into the depths of these raging waters
Your raging waters
But I cannot come up with a line
That can put it all down, plain and bold
Words are just not enough
But I still feel like writing you a poem
For I feel like I owe you one

© Dredd X

Womankind (Poem)

If you are woman, take your right palm and place it over your left breast
listen to that heartbeat. It’s beating for you and I, it’s beating for humanity.
You see, I am a man who’s been around in this world
For decades and centuries and millenniums of years
In every part of the world
North south east west and centre
In a every nation in every race black white
Chinese Indian blue red yellow
And it’s the womb of a woman
That brings around mankind, womankind
Woo-man they say you’re made from a man’s rib
But I think you made a man’s rib
For surely sometimes I think God is a She
Because you are the hand that moulded and raised
Every single one of them
From the preacher man who lies to you
That you have to die to get a pie in the sky
To a sleek politician who belittles and demeans you
Regardless of how many votes you throw into his ballot box
you see when equal opportunities is all you want
Rise and shine in your queendom  
Forward ever, backward never
Progress, Empress, progress Princess, go on lioness, go on
(Woman) I cherish you in any way, shape or form, colour or religion
Whether girl, lady or woman, young or old
You see you carried us for nine long months
A heavy load in your belly
Subjected to excruciating pains… excruciating pains
Only to bring life into this world, mankind, womankind
If only man can see, if only man can understand
They would not throw stones at your glass house
For when it shatters it cannot be rebuilt


© Dredd X

Waters of My Imaginations (Poem)

In the waters of my imaginations I sail
Like a fish amid the ripples without fail
Equilibrium of my soul speaks a voice
In the center of a storm with no choice
Tingles under my feet scratch, scratch and scratch
Scratch yet was in the wound to patch
Inner being pulls outward with no sight
And the center of life pulls in a stance to fight
The stance to fight
Without a sight

In the waters of my imaginations I sail
An innocent prisoner denied bail
From the dungeon pits rises a storm of heated noise
With which looms memories of days with the boys
No matter how many days how many sleepless nights I search
Like a ripe egg I want to hatch
Inner being pulls outward with no sight
And the center of life pulls in a stance to fight
The stance to fight
Without a sight

In the waters of my imaginations I sail
A man of divine authority on my neck balancing a pail
The steepness of the road
The heaviness of the load
On and on and on and on the feet keep beating
Keep beating the hard dry dusty miles
On and on and on and on the feet keep beating
Keep beating the hard dry dusty miles
Cough, cough I choke from the intense filth
A mouthful of viscid mucus becomes my cough remedy

In the waters of my imaginations I sail
A man of divine authority on my neck balancing a pail
In the waters of my imaginations I sail
An innocent prisoner denied bail
In the waters of my imaginations I sail
Like a fish amid the ripples without fail

© Dredd X









Sorry for the Story (Poem)

You were supposed to be my wife
and that could have saved my life
It’s you that I should be kissing
and now, sadly, it’s you that I’m missing
It may sound like a sorry anthology
But you don’t have to accept my apology
All I need is for you to hear my words
I just don’t wanna tell it to the birds
I promised to be always there for you
Particularly in times when you feel blue
I had sworn to always make you smell a red rose
But instead all I gave you was a bleeding nose
Damn me!
To you I have never been man enough
But you always stood so tough
Even when I made your days so rough
lady, I’m really sorry for the story
I’m sorry for the things that I did to you,
And the things I never did for you
I’m sorry for the trauma that I made you go through
I’m sorry for the times when I left you out in the cold
when I was supposed to be there for you to hold

See you gave me all you got
And yes we could have tied the knot
But I messed it up by being such a bull
I complete, certified, award winning fool
I didn’t know what I got till its gone
Now its darkness and I’ll never see dawn
It’s not easy for me to hit the sack
That’s why  I’m crying for you to come back
Teardrops on the strings of my guitar
With the thoughts of you being so far
I miss the days I used to sing you Bon Jovi’s Bed of Roses
What a feeling it still imposes
Dear, I’m really sorry for the story
I’m sorry for the things that I did to you,
And the things I never did for you
I’m sorry for the trauma that I made you go through
I’m sorry for the times when I left you out in the cold
When I was supposed to be there for you to hold

It may sound like a sorry anthology
But you don’t have to accept my apology
All I need is for you to hear my words
I just don’t wanna tell it to the birds
You left without saying goodbye
But I will always sing you a lullaby
Tunes  sourced right from the core of my heart
Wishing I could take us right to the start
Where emotions were entwined in mutual feelings
Feelings that blew us to the ceilings
Dear, we used to be such great lovers
Now I’m standing in front of this blank canvas
Paint brushes trying to recall the memories
But  it comes only with the agonies
My brushes only paint in vain
And all they can paint is pain
Brushes only paint in vain
And all they can paint is pain